And hello my old pal, we haven't seen each other for a while.
So, please, sit down, feel yourself comfortable.
Small update about how's going on in my life, because, due to my last post, I will be here in my first 30'.
1. Yes, I still in Kyiv.
2. we rent a flat with Andrii.
3. Yes, we still not married, but who cares?
4. I am stupid and obtaining a PhD.
aaaaaaaaand that's it?
Now I am in quarantine and a bit struggle with myself.
I want to be somewhere else. I am not talking about how pissed I am sitting in 4 walls in flat. I'm talking about place. I am talking about... I am just being me. Again and again.
I whole life afraid of doing first steps. I afraid of work (because everybody will know that I am stupid), I afraid of being a mother, I afraid of moving to another country.
Yesterday I had this dumb thought "if I come in my past with my all knowledge what have I done" and I thought, that I won't change anything. I won't flirt with THIS guy, whom I was in love in school (because he's just sassy boy and nothing more), I won't change my education choice.
Maybe, I'd try to work as early as I could, I'd try to work as a photographer, I'd move to the Netherlands after ending my education.
Why I can't do all of this now?...